a clock and a waste basket
The first things I ever bought for our new apartment was a clock and a waste basket. You didn’t ask me why, you just nodded with a smile and walked out of the living room.
We settled into our lives the way couples did. Your feet were on my lap as you wrote e-mails on your computer, my hand lazily ran back and forth on your shins as I flipped through the twenty channels we had, because cheap cable was luxurious enough; you showered first and I flipped myself over on the bed snoozing the alarm clock for another nine minutes; we went grocery shopping together on Wednesdays because that was when prices were the cheapest, but we still argued about the kind of milk to get; I took the garbage out and you washed the dishes because you’d rather deal with pruned hands than chance another frightful encounter with a wild raccoon; I kissed you soft and chaste, you kissed me hard and dirty, and it was not long until we settled somewhere in the middle of it all.
I watched the clock as much as I looked at your face and I emptied the waste basket as much as you held me at night.
At the back of my head was your hand holding me closer. At some point we both discovered that there was such a thing as expiration dates outside of that gallon of skim milk that you wanted instead of the 2% that I desired. I kissed your cheeks and you cried into my shirt and I knew I was going to miss you.
My name was on the lease and your name was on my lips and I regretted looking at the clock instead of looking at your face as you walked away.
But when you shut the door, I emptied the waste basket even though there was nothing sitting in it except for an empty milk jug and that thing we used to call a relationship.
I wished you could have asked me why, because I so badly wanted to tell you that it was only a matter of time until we fell out of love with each other and that I’d end up having to collect all the things you left behind just to throw them all away, eventually.
counterpunches asked: #35, #2
Hey!
35, okay. The bands I’ve seen live:
- Guster
- N*Sync
- Sam Adams
- Mat Kearney
- Four Year Strong
- Mayday Parade
- Tegan and Sara
- Lilith Fair
- Hesta Prynn
- fun.
- The Kin
- Hanson
- Glee (that counts, okay?)
And, 2.
I am really, really bad at rollerblading.
sssammich replied to your post: i’ll bite. 53. (at least i didn’t make you do all of them
ahahahaha okay. oh! 49. do 49.
Okay! 49, let’s see.
Something I should have said a long time ago…
“Hey, watch out for that-“
Kidding. Let’s see.
“Thank you.”
There.
- 1. Sexual orientation.
- 2. What I’m really bad at.
- 3. The one person whose arms I’d like to be in.
- 4. My best first date.
- 5. A description of my self-esteem.
- 6. Who my best friends are.
- 7. My favorite book.
- 8. Biggest turn-offs.
- 9. A description of my best friend.
- 10. My favorite animal.
- 11. Someone I miss.
- 12. The reason behind my last breakup.
- 13. What I did yesterday.
- 14. What my greatest achievement is.
- 15. A description of the person I dislike most.
- 16. My 5 favorite songs right now.
- 17. How my last kiss went down.
- 18. What I find attractive in the preferred sex.
- 19. All of the pets I’ve ever had.
- 20. Favorite flavor of ice cream.
- 21. The one place I want to be right now.
- 22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me.
- 23. Where I have lived before.
- 24. I’ll love you if…
- 25. What are my future plans?
- 26. An internal conflict I have with myself.
- 27. What I’m doing tomorrow.
- 28. What I want to be when I get older.
- 29. Most embarrassing moment.
- 30. Two of my insecurities.
- 31. What I would do if I won the lottery.
- 32. A description of the boy or girl I like.
- 33. What I love most about myself.
- 34. My biggest pet peeves.
- 35. What bands I’ve seen live.
- 36. How many kids I want in the future.
- 37. My idea of a perfect date.
- 38. What I’m really good at.
- 39. Most traumatic experience.
- 40. Where I would like to live.
- 41. The nicest thing anyone’s ever said to me.
- 42. Do I like where I am now?
- 43. My relationship with my sibling(s).
- 44. All the pets I’ve ever had.
- 45. What I can hear right now.
- 46. My biggest worry currently.
- 47. Something I’ve wished for repeatedly.
- 48. My relationship with my parents.
- 49. Something I should have said a long time ago.
- 50. What my last text message says.
- 51. What I hate most about myself.
- 52. Biggest turn-ons.
- 53. What words upset me the most.
(via rockinrye)
Okay, so I am going to make a playlist of the songs I play on the jukebox at work.
You’re going to get it.
And you’re going to like it.
◅ Quinn Fabray ✖ Awake
Dr. John Lee: So, tell me how this works.
Quinn: I’m awake and I’m with Rachel. Then I close my eyes, and when I open them, I’m awake and she’s with him.
Dr. Judith Evans: And this has been happening since the accident?
Dr. John Lee: Tell me about your relationship with Rachel.
Quinn: We’ve been together since she confessed her feelings for me at the hospital.
Dr. Judith Evans: And your relationship with Rachel Berry?
Quinn: She went through with the wedding. She’s married to Finn now.
Dr. John Lee: So you can obviously walk here - in reality - and then suddenly, you’re paralyzed from the waist down and confined to a wheelchair, there, in your dream?
Quinn: It all feels completely real to me.
Dr. John Lee: So you can’t tell whether you’re awake or asleep at this very moment?
Dr. Judith Evans: Well I can assure you, Quinn, this is not a dream.
Quinn: That’s exactly what the other shrink said.
Accent theme by Handsome Code
"... And in that moment, I swear we were infinite. " - The Perks Of Being A Wallflower
IN THE WORDS OF SOMEONE ELSE...
"shorter than jack, you're fairly calm until you hang out with your roommates, you're a brunette, you are FINALLY over 21 years old, you are in a relationship with caffeine, you are pretty fucking gay, you can be lazy but you get pretty bouncy after your fifth cup of coffee, you are a big dreamer and a microplanner, you also just wear anything that is clean, you prefer converses, and your hair is in a ponytail forever so no one knows, also sleep in the dark but when do you sleep?"
